i have a meeting! at 2! i am so excited i could spit, as it means i will FOR THE FIRST TIME THIS WEEK have something to do. no, that's a lie. yesterday i copied and pasted addresses for a couple of hours. but.

i can't find today's painting (neptune and amphitrite, filippo napoletano, 1618) online, so yesterday's was: ( giles, jean-antoine watteau, 1720 )

giles (or pierrot) is the french incarnation of the commedia dell'arte character pedrolino. pedrolino is the sad clown of commedia dell'arte, the rejected lover who is always melancholy. he makes me really sad to look at. especially because somebody put him in that ridiculous white silk get up. poor thing. alone AND doofy looking.

people were not nearly as excited about my dirty sga porn as i was. sniff. bummer.

today's painting is ( the little monkey, franz marc, 1912 )

it is just a monkey. on a branch. also, there is a flower.

i cannot connect this to any personal angst, and therefore i say: i'm goin' home.

today's painting was supposed to be "two young girls," an extremely gay piece of art by louis eugene bertier, but i couldn't find a copy of it online. instead, friday's, which was, ( carriage at the races by edgar degas )

degas is one of my favorites. his desolation, his attention to minute detail and his glossing over of others that might seem at first to be more important, and most especially, his use of light. in this one, see for instance the shadow and light across the baby's body and legs.


in other news, most of life seems kind of unbearable. i wish i could say more, sometimes, but i can't, for a thousand or more reasons, none of which are interesting but all of which bind me in loops of embarassment, loyalty, and discretion. most days i spend wanting nothing more than to collapse into bed, to watch ridiculous tv, to have my hair stroked, to have the kitty on my stomach and feel his heart beat. i'm a simple girl, i think, but usually things don't come through.


virginia this weekend was awesome, though. the concert was lovely, if imperfect, and the time spent drinking and smoking and laughing with girls i was friends with a decade ago was one of the best things that's happened in ages. there's the absolute joy of realizing that people don't change so very much, really, and that the people you loved years ago are probably the people you'd be able to love today. needless to say, another virginia trip with a little more time involved is certainly in order, maybe not so long after we move down to raleigh-durham, because the trip from there is only about 4 hours in the car -- far more manageable than 7-10 hours like we did this weekend. i'm sorry i didn't call you, mysticstargazer -- i just got a new alltel phone and haven't transferred all my numbers! but i'll be down south soon and we'll totally catch up and it will be AWESOMER THAN AWESOME.

today's painting is ( the carrying of the cross, hieronymus bosch, 1500 )

i can identify so well with the crazed look of those guys in the bottom right corner. that's exactly how i feel. sleep was so bad last night that it's all i can do to keep my eyes open. my eyelids literally shake with the effort, which is ridiculous. and i keep dozing off trying to work, which is hard when you're working with complex lists -- i have to keep refinding my place WHICH IS GETTING VERY TIRESOME INDEED.

last night, i was the best daughter ever and went to get my parents' taxes done for them. thenewhope was the best girlfriend ever and came with me. and angela was the best tax associate ever and got everything finished in an hour. but seriously, that's devotion. not a lot of people would submit to the tax process a second time. i'm just THAT nice.

also, it's possible that i volunteered to write sga (teyla/elizabeth) for alien_altars. so that's funny, considering i've seen about 5 episodes of the show. but i, unsurprisingly, am desperately in love with elizabeth, as lame as people might think her, and teyla obviously is incomparable. also, i'm totally swept away by liz's s3 hair/makeup. yes.

in other news, still nothing from duke law or unc law. duke i've pretty much given up on. unc, we'll see. (hee, i rhymed.)

this weekend, hope and i are takinga very quick roadtrip. literally two days, down to virginia. but it will be nice! we are going to see my old chorus do a piece that i love and to go to an alumni party (yay bar and people i haven't seen in 8 years! YAY!). speaking of, tangleofthorns: i just rebought the malcolm dalglish cds of old, and i wondered if you wanted me to rip them and send them to you. i know you liked what i shared.

anyway, i have to go have a cigarette before i drop dead of tired.

well! furies and i went to north carolina to stay with my parents. we went outlet shopping, ate at red robin, and played with the baby. i also got sicker than i've been in probably 10 years. yay fever of 102.6, you're really awesome! thanks for dropping by!

then i had my sleep study. man, that was weird. also, i don't think they found anything particularly wrong with me, which may mean i slept with wires attached to my head and crap up my nose for no reason. hmpf.

and because it's pretty, art:

march 19: ( girl at the piano, cezanne, 1867 )

march 20: ( the annunciation, martini, 1333 )

march 21: ( gare saint-lazare, paris, monet, 1877 )

my mom got me this great book ("a year in art") that has a painting for every day of the year. i was thinking i should actually share these, as they're pretty freaking cool. (with some liberties taken for when i cannot find a good copy of the painting in question.)

this week's (including the ones i'll be away from the office for!):


march 12: ( Luncheon on the Grass, 1863, Edouard Manet )

march 13: ( Plate 11 from Fifty-three Stations of the Tokaido, 1830, Hakone )

march 14: ( Country People Playing a Ball Game, 1640s, Jan Steen )

march 15: ( Chemin de la Machine, 1873, John Sisley )

march 16: ( Russian Fair, 1906, Boris Kustodiev )